First Loss (2019)

As a young and driven doctor, Clarissa thought that having years of experience in college, studying in the cadaver lab would give her enough background to understand and feel normal about dealing with dead. Seeing it as something natural all that she wanted was to work hard enough to be able to postpone the dead for some since she is an ER Physician. This is how she thought it would be before her first code blue that led her to experience her first patient loss and she once again saw herself standing in front a lifeless human body, but this time she felt different as a life click had happen in side her brain. Clarissa was right about one thing, it felt natural for her to stand in front a dead body, but seeing the life live a body and watching it from deep in side that person's eyes, no she had never learn how to cope with something like that, and she could never learn at college. She sees herself impotent for the first time. Did she do everything that she could? She will starts doubting the meaning of life in other words try to not lose faith.